Covid-19 turned the world upside down.
So much has changed, especially with the way we live. Ever since March, we’ve all been forced to stay at home so we don’t catch this new coronavirus strain.
But being stuck at home isn’t as easy as it sounds. You would think it would be easier on us since we’ve been working from home for the longest time.
Truth is, we don’t mind the staying at home bit. We’re used to that.
The problem is, the basic freedom to move has been taken away from all of us. And it has caused so much stress and anxiety for us all.
Hearing the news wasn’t helping either. It wasn’t easy learning about all the jobs that has been lost.
Reading about the deaths wasn’t easy either. The whole world was in shambles, not knowing how to treat nor respond to this virus.
It’s difficult to watch, especially when almost everyone around you is unsure of how to move forward.
So, with everything tragic going on in the world, would it be bad for me to say that I haven’t been more in tune with myself than today?
Would it be selfish to say that I am now much better than I was way back in March?
Before you throw stones at me, hear me out.
It’s true that this pandemic has been devastating for all. As I said, we have experienced so much loss because of this.
But it’s not always dark, right?
There’s always light in the shadow. And no matter how desperate the situation is, there’s always that sliver of hope that shows itself to us at the right time.
With all that’s said and done, I see COVID-19 as one of the biggest blessings in disguise.
For me, it feels like a hard reset button. It forced me to abandon all my plans, trust my own instinct, and reflect on my life as I live it.
This pandemic has allowed me to instrospect, reprogram, and regroup. And it showed me how resilient I was.
Don’t get me wrong. I too was scared shitless about the uncertainty of things.
I felt like it was a hopeless case, especially during the first few weeks.
Clients were dropping left and right. I was panicking and thinking of all the accounts I haven’t been paid for. Most of all, I was so worried about how me and my family would survive.
Like any mother, my priority was food. I needed to make sure we had enough to survive.
We moved as a unit with my father as the lead. My husband and I served as support.
We stocked up on the necessities, and focused on surviving by the day. We watched as numbers rose, and felt anxious as the days went by.
It felt as if the angel of death was on its way to us as the cases in cities and baranggays increased.
I couldn’t feel anything but frustration with the government and its leaders, and it pained me to watch as people became more and more desperate to make ends meet.
There were times when I would just cry and fall silent. And my anxiety would make my bathroom spotless and clean.
And then one day, it just stopped.
Maybe it’s because I already cried enough. Or maybe it was because I knew I wasn’t the only one feeling this way.
Maybe it was divine intervention and God telling me to put all my trust in him.
The worries, the fears, it just stopped.
Because I was reminded that I had the power to control how I respond.
It is what it is. And I couldn’t do anything about it.
Suddenly I got reminded of how capable I am as a writer and freelancer to create opportunities for myself.
I was reminded of how strong I was as a woman, as a survivor, as a mother.
Suddenly I had the power to manifest all the things I want to happen in my life.
And I was capable of sharing the lessons I’ve learned as a mother, a wife, and as a creative entrepreneur.
I started guesting in live streams and talking about how we as people can move forward with what we can.
I launched a fail fast free program for content writing basics.
I went in and spent more time prospecting and looking for clients for help.
I showed up and paid more attention into my coaching classes.
This pandemic gave me the time to get certified as a content marketer. I also got access to tons of free workshops and courses offered by top marketers and organizations.
I worked on myself, and focused on becoming better at what I do.
Not only that, I also got to spend more time with my family.
Before the pandemic, we had so many things going on that we couldn’t stay at home.
But now, get to spend more time with my husband and child. We get to talk more and dream more.
I got back to cooking and learning new recipes.
Finally I also got to make my own kimchi!
I also got another video done for my Youtube channel, Homebased Momma. Here’s our latest one =)
This pandemic showed me how to be happy and content at home.
It showed me that I could survive without giving in to my cravings. And that I could live without road trips, malls, and other things.
COVID-19 taught me about what truly matters in my life: my family.
I’m still not sure about what will happen in the future.
I’ve learned to be more flexible about how my days would go.
In the end, all I know is that I need to give up and give in so I could grow.
Sure, COVID-19 still sucks. But for me, it helped me confront my shadows, embrace it, and accept it as a part of me.
And most of all, it showed me the power of letting go and letting things be.
It showed me the freedom of surrender to get to the true me.
What has COVID-19 taught you lately? Feel free to share it in the comment section below.